COME CHILD, READ ME

shit

2004-07-05T22:33:36Z

I got Royally Fucked in the Gisela Open list. First I face Futsuriai, which shouldn't be that bad, I hope I win. But then, I either face Ter-Thok or Ranger (Kyle), which I will lose either way. Then, if I pull off a miraculous victory, I face FUCKING MAX DIRKS. OMFG I couldn't be more SCREWED!!!

(3) Max Dirks v (30) Zigu
(22) Cyrus the Virus v (11) Mist

(15) Unseen v (18) Futsuriai
(26) Ranger v (7) Ter-Thok

SHIT

Hell yes!

2004-07-05T22:28:09Z

My mom finally moved her bed out of the computer room and into HER ROOM. Do you know what this means?!?!?! INTERNET ALL NIGHT BABY!! No more clearing out at 10:00 when mom feels sleepy!! HAHA!!

w00t!

So I have a lot to talk about

2004-07-05T17:31:44Z

On saturday I went out with the group to watch fireworks. We got there at like 6:45 and fireworks didn't start 'till 9:45. It was fucking boring. The fireworks were cool though. I like the ones that swim like those weird water bugs. Those are cool looking. The ending was the best though. I knew they were going to fake us out with a stupid ending then blast off like 2432 at a time. I kept yelling to everyone leaving "IT'S NOT THE END!!!" they probably thought I was doped. Anyways, it was really fun and really hard to get out of traffic!!

While we were sitting around and talking, there was this girl who was checking me out. I looked over, and our eyes met, and I got all shy and stuff and looked away. God dammit, I hate being so shy. Anyways, I started getting all like "What if she really isn't checking me out" and second guessing myself because I have a low self esteem. So, I ended up doing nothing about it. THE GOVERNMENT!!

So on sunday I got really mad and yelled at my mom. She grounded me from the computer and I was sad :(. I thought it was going to be a lot worse though but I convinced her somehow not to kill me. She had LEFT ME HOME and didn't take me to church. That's always a bad sign. When my mom who is so aved about me going to church doesn't take me, you know you are in deep shit.

So all sunday I watched a special on PBS called "Rebels and Redcoats". It was about the Revolutionary War and it was really interesting. It was like 4 or 5 hours long though, and my head was seriously killing me. After that I played Mario sunshine for a really long time and learned the true meaning of FRUSTRATION when I couldn't beat this one level. I used to own at Mario Sunshine, I mean, I'm still really good but WHERE'S THE HEAT?? Yeah... after that I watched Independance Day which is still a good movie, but the actor who played the President SUCKED ASS. I hate that guy, he is like an unfunny charly sheen. Anyway, his character was cliche and said chliche things and was a bitch. It was annoying but the rest of the movie was ok.

So, I fell asleep on the couch last night and woke up just in time for the nature show on PBS!! Yay! I was going to stay up for that anyways, but I was too tired. This one was about how animals work in groups. It was cool.

Althanas is kina dead lately. I want my quest judged. I miss Tyler :'(.

K, that's it. Have a ghetofabulous day everyone.

Sleepy

2004-07-03T18:31:40Z

I spent all last night up writing a quest. It's not that I wanted to, but I couldn't sleep so I decided to be constructive. I finally fell asleep at 6:30 in the morning but was awakend when my moms friends began to paint and crap. They were really loud and obnoxious, so I coulnd't sleep. I woke up around 10:30 and took my quest from pen and paper to typed up on the computer. Here is the quest, if you want to read.

Just sitting here and being bored, probably going to go out with the group later today and see fireworks/shit like that. 'Till then.

If you have any comments on the quest please post them here.

Light the ocean floor and watch the blaze...

2004-07-02T18:54:30Z

That is a line I keep remembering from a dream I had last night. I can't get it out of my head. I was walking through my dream and people were singing that line over and over again. Pretty weird if you ask me.

The only other stuff I can remember about the dream is that I saw my dad, too. While I was talking to him a squirel was jumping on a table near us, and we just kinda watched it crawl away. It was a weird dream. I remember it was raining alot, too.

Well, last night I put up my picture on althanas, so I might as well put it here. Sorry about the quality of the pictures, I have a really shitty camera.

EDIT: For the sake of this posts integrity I will only post one pic.

You pot smokin hooligans

2004-07-01T20:42:39Z

98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't copy & paste this into your journal.

So, today I feel like crap. Yes, that's right. I think the paint is really starting to get to me. It still freaking smells like paint in the house, even though they stopped 3 days ago. Ugh.

I just discovered something very important. Even though I didn't enjoy reading a battle on althanas today, I sure did enjoy judging it. It's the giving advice part that I really love, knowing I'm helping someone out. It's fun.

So I'm still stuck without a job. You know, I don't even really want a job that bad, I just want money. I'm going to whore myself out on a street corner... Or maybe I'll just take my friends money.

I really need something to do, because I'm bored. I'll probably post again today.

Hoy

2004-06-30T21:26:28Z

Today is wednesday and I saw Spiderman 2 last night at 12:00. First show! I thought it was great. It was a very entertaining movie, and I don't need anything else from it. That's all I was expecting when I went in, and that's all I needed.

So, today I found out that the people at the theater aren't hireing. D'oh! I really needed that job! :(. Now I have no idea what I'm going to do or how I'm going to do it. UGH SUCK MY DICK.

So I'm sitting here not knowing what to do, just typing away on my livejournal and hoping I can think of something. So yesterday when Kara Nathan and I were hanging out, Kara out of the blue says "You know Josh, I really like you. You are really cool." Yeah, I didn't really know what to think about it, but I was like "Ok, thanks." because she used to hate my guts. I work better in smaller environments, I can't be myself in a large group because what I like to call "The Hive Mentality"

"The Hive Mentality" is exactly what it sounds like. In a bee hive, the bee's have one mind, they are focused on one goal. That's how it feels like in my group, and it's hard to be individual when you have the "Hive Mentality". Oh well, I'm glad some people are able to look past that and into ME.

Summer is overrated. I need school, even though I hate it most of the time. I've vowed to myself this year to work my ass off, no matter how shitty I feel about it. IT'S ABOUT FUCKING TIME I TAKE CHARGE AND MAKE A LIFE FOR MYSELF. I can't let it slip away! I want to do things in my lifetime and make money, and retire and be able to travel the world! I don't want to end up in some hole of a job that my mom is in. Even though she loves teaching and she doesn't want to do anything else, it pays SHIT.

I really need to take charge, and that means working working working. I need to take responsibility for my future. I don't want to end up like my sister, flunking out of college and wasting thousands of dollars. I WANT A LIFE. To have one later, I probably need to sacrifice one for now. That means getting a job, DOING GOOD IN SCHOOL (at least trying my hardest), and working out. I'm sick of my body, when I get money I am changing so much shit. I am going to get in shape, and look good, because I know I can. I AM JUST ONE BIG LAZY ASS.

Anyways, enough ranting. See you all later.

Stuffed Clams and other glams

2004-06-28T23:40:44Z

Buzz.

It smells like paint in my house, and it's giving me a headache. I had stuffed clams for dinner, and they tasted good.

I have an awesome new Gmail account, thanks Jess!

So for all you peoples who read this and e-mail me, it's daggur@gmail.com

Please stop blinking mr. chat window :'( I'll be there in a second.

Subject: (optional)

2004-06-28T18:04:36Z

Ok. So my mom finally let me apply for a job in Gainesville!! I guess she finally realized that getting a job in High Hicksville (High Springs) was hopeless. I'm happy, though, because there is much more to do in Gainesville. So I applied at Royal Park movie theater. Oh yeah. I'm hoping to get a job there; that is the first place I've applied where I actually want to work.

So, I'm still waiting for Tyler to judge my quest I wrote about the death of Kaazekhele. It's sad :(. I don't want him to die, but it has to be done. His story has been dragged through the mud recently, and it's time to just lay him to rest. It's better than letting him get all crapped up because I have to switch from a dark style (Unseen) to a good style (Kaaz) everytime I write with him. Anyways, it's been 5 days and I'm still waiting :(. I hope it scores well, because the quest was really important to me.

I keep getting my friends to try and read it, but they only ever read Kaaz's part! I want them to read the whole quest, but they didn't know that Unseen was my other character, so they just read "my" part -_-.

I need new music on my computer or I'm going to explode.

Anyways, that's it for now. I had a really good lunch today.

Test

2004-06-19T13:51:38Z

Yes!

You are Astaroth -

Your combination of being both silly and scary is what makes you appealing.
It just cracks people up when they see you goof around at one time, and stare people down at another time.
Your unpredictability may confuse some, annoy some, and amuse others, but whatever happens,
you're too caught up with your own thing to conform to other people's standards.
Besides that, the id seems to be the dominant force in your mind
(the part of the mind which demands immediate gratification)

Which Soul Calibur character are you?

this quiz was made by david park

I found this at Ithy's journal, thanks! :D

Whoooooaaa

2004-06-19T13:15:17Z

Wow, it has been a long freakin time. I haven't posted here in forever! I've missed all of you :( (lol, I'm talking to myself). Anyways, nothing interesting to post. I'm just chillUN like a UNiON foo's!! In the freeza, you sneeza! Ok, I'm going to stop right there, before it goes too far. (I wish I was a Snoopdog! :()

I created my army for the Gisela Open on Althanas, and it's already killing everyone else (and we haven't even started ;)). I'm really looking forward to that tournament, so I'm going to force my mom to stay up 'till 12:00.

Holy hamsters, I've been waking up EARLY recently. Today I woke up at 8:30!! I used to wake up at 2:00 in the afternoon, but that has all changed with a really disturbing dream I had. I don't even want to go into it, but it was the kind where you only sleep as long as you have to afterwords, because the dream world isn't the place you used to think it was :(.

Oh yeah, I remember why I stopped writing here! It's because that Robin said she was only kidding when she liked me! Ok, yeah. That's what I mainly wrote about here, so that's why I stopped. This is cooler anyway ;).

Sooo, I have nothing left to talk about. Kiss me!! :)

Driving test...

2004-05-13T02:40:03Z

Well, today I retook my test, and I did great. I have my license now, and everything is hunky dory.

I have this theory. Since you have to pay 10 bucks for all the times after your first time to retake the test, I think they just fail you the first time to get your money the second. Because, it's required by law to let the first be free, but not the second.

I was only the second person all of today that passed the test. I left at 6:00 in the afternoon. That is scary.

Also my license pic looks great. It doesn't look crappy/scary like my last one did. This one looks like an actual good pic.

I'm so happy :).

God my head hurts.

2004-05-09T03:06:04Z

I finally got my new althanas character approved today. Vals comments: "I'm glad that you actually balanced your character out. So very, very glad. Approved."

Take a peak.

So yeah, I'm all snotted up and sick and have a cold, and I've been sitting on my ass all day doing nothing. I'm bored, and I don't have the drive to do anything. It's too late to do much, so I think I'll just sit here and write.

I saw Van Helsing last night with Nathan, and that was really fun. We went by ourselves, and the whole time we were making fun of it, even though I thought it was an ok movie. At one point, this girl beside us got so fed up of us making fun of it, she was like "SHUT UP!" It only made us laugh more hilariously.

The basic concept was cool, even though the plot wasn't revealed 'till the very end. They basically took every famous horror creature and put it in the movie. Vamps, werewolves, etc.

Haha, one part during the movie, these little minions accidentally get caught on fire. IT's a really serious part, since the lady is defeating the minions. They were little midget things, so when they were running around, I let out this high pitched "SCREEEEEEE!!!" in this weird voice, and every around started to bust out laughing. Aww man... It was so easy to make fun of that movie, I wonder what kinda stuff Chris - the movie makefunof guru would have said? - would have said. That would have been hilarious.

So, I don't really have anything else to say. Tomorrow is Mothers day, and I got my mom - SORRY GOTTA SWITCH THIS DAMN RAP SONG OFF - this bracelet she had been wanting but couldn't buy. So yeah, I hope she still likes it.

Nighty night mulsquees!

Mmm... buh?

2004-05-09T02:57:46Z

The end justifies the beginning, trust me. I wrote this, and I hadn't even read it. I looked at it later, and found all these deep nuggets that I found to be true in my life. This thing really speaks to me personally, whether or not other people know what I'm talking about.
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TITLE!!

Spillin twenty threes.

BEGINNING

i'm....sinking....into....an....abyss....of nothingness....not a thing I can do.... i don't feel for you.... I tried and tried to make it right..... but all you did was remove my right.... spilling twenty threes

spiiiiiillliiiiin twenty threees

I scratched up all the knees... you didn't find that fault that was there all along, wating along the people - throng. Where had it gone these wondrous days? Not here, nor there, not finding place to stays. It isn't proper talk to say your on the stalk, but who would lick anyway?

I... can't think... around your brain. This is driving me insane. I don't see the light at the end, it's all turning out to be deathsend. Where have all the leaders gone? They died along with every other in their peice, they died along with wars for peace. I hadn't found the answer true until I talked and met with you. It brought descruction down... down... down..

Down down down to the ground, it's sinking through the sands of time...

FREESTYLE!

I'm spinning a spider web, it's in my mind. The thoughts and dreams I cannot hide. Rancid pettals of times gone by, flittering and flying as I walked high. The sky, it sings, with blue bird wings. They soar and fly without one wrong thing.

To fly with them is life, taking off to see the light. The sun shines down from head to toe, covering all with magesty you know.

Oops, I'm caught up in my thoughts. That web of dreams and rancid droughts. Too late, I'm spent, I had a second chance. But wait! There's more! This story doesn't end!

I haven't eaten poison yet, and haven't fallen down (completely). Spit shine, it's on my crown. You haven't seen yours yet, it's hindered from your form of other yet. Take it!! IT's YOURS! Don't let it slip away...

Having life is taking death, you'll get it either way.

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Lines to think about.

1. "It isn't proper talk to say your on the stalk, but who would lick anyway?"

2. "Where have all the leaders gone? They died along with every other in their peice, they died along with wars for peace."

3. "I haven't eaten poison yet, and haven't fallen down (completely). Spit shine, it's on my crown. You haven't seen yours yet, it's hindered from your form of other yet. Take it!! IT's YOURS! Don't let it slip away..."

4. "Having life is taking death, you'll get it either way."

Driving test

2004-05-07T21:06:12Z

Well, today was the day I was supposed to get my license.

Huh, fucked that up.

First off, I get this dumb ass shit of a lady who can't speak worth a flying fuck who gives me shit about not having the car registration stuff. So my mom goes into the car and gets it, and then we are fine. Well, I get everything ready to go and do the test.

I get this ugly ass bastard who is always squinting, looks like he's got a dick between his eyes from the way he wrinkles his nose like a little faggot. So, the mother fucker takes me out to the car, and I start driving. I'm doing perfect, when then he asks me to pull out of a parking space into the road. I do, and pull into the wrong lane. "Oops, automatic disqualification." GOD WHAT A DICK! ONE STUPID MISTAKE, AND I"M FUCKED UP! It's not even like a real road, I couldn't tell how I was supposed to pull out, because there aren't ever any mother fucking parking spaces on the side of a road, where you pull in.

GOD I AM SO HACKED OFF. What the hell is even the point of going back and doing it again? I know I'm just going to fuck myself somehow. I don't even want my fucking license.

I went outside after I got home and screamed at the top of my lungs for a while, and it didn't help.

The little bastard is just going to go home tonight to his faggot lover, get all nice and cummed up, roll around in his own shit.

Wubbady dub dub doo

2004-05-03T23:34:09Z

Well, it's been pretty uneventful. It all started out on friday, which was fun. Robin, me, chris, jasmine, nathan, and kara went to Chris' house and hung out. We all watched Underworld, which was cool. During the movie Robin and I were getting really close, and that was cool. She had her head on my shoulder part of the time, and I really liked that. Right now I don't know what she wants, whether a relationship is what she is looking for or no, so I wrote her a poem about how I feel. It's not mushy, but more explains my feelings/confusion (Same thing ;P). I'm not going to show it to you, because it's personal.

Saturday we all went to Kelley's party, which was fun too. It was a hawaiin (SP) party, but we didn't do anything hawaiin. We eventualy took the lays and decorated ourselves with the plastic, and danced around her house to music. It was a blast. Later on, we made full costumes out of the plastic, and went downtown and took pictures and stuff. We got alot of stares, which was cool, but not nearly enough.

Sunday was confusing, but fun. The group went out to Bentos to eat dinner, Robin's mom's treat (because we helped her grandma move) and it was nummy. Then we were going to go to a movie, but nothing was playing when we could all go see (curfue, *ugh*). So we all sat around and did nothing, trying to decide what we were going to do. Eventually, we went to Borders(book store) about 10 minutes before it closed. Then we migrated to Starbucks.

I don't know how Robin feels, and this is why. It was like she was totally ignoring me sat/sun, but that was the time after she showed all that affection at Chris' house.

I'm such a moron, I always forget to compliment her and stuff, even though I want to. I guess I'm too shy. I sit there and automatically assume she looks good, so I don't say anything. I need to work on that, obviously, because I'm sure she would like to hear it.

AHH!!! But she is grounded for a month now! Right before I get my license and I was going to ask her out!!!!!!!!!!! It sucks major ass.

Oh well, that's my life right now.

Teeheheheeehe

2004-04-27T00:51:23Z

Lol, this is hilarious. Check this out.

I have been judging threads on Althanas all day, and it is getting tiresome. I judged 4 threads and am ready to not judge anymore for a while. I need to role-play some.

I NEED SOCIAL INTERACTION. I need to talk to somebody on the phone, because I am freakin bored.

I have the worst headache right now, it's soooo bad.

I can't concentrate, my thoughts are sporatic, I'm dying.

Goodbye, until next time.

Oh yeah, strongbad-the anime version is awesome.

Whoa

2004-04-22T02:44:15Z

How long has it been since I posted here? A long time! Well, I don't really have anything to catch you up on, so I'll just rant like normal :).

I'm doing really well with a new character on Althanas, The Mentalist. He is REALLY easy to use, and it only takes like 10 minutes to write a really good post. That is a rare thing my friends... I am able to write really well with both of my characters, because their personalities just come so naturally to me I suppose. But I've been working on dialogue and it is MUCH MUCH MUCH better than it ever used to be. I can't wait for the LCC to be judged so I can see what I made on my dialogue score.

So, today was the two week aniversary of my diet. Yay me! And I only cheated once, eating a handful of corn *raises eyebrows* but that doesn't really count, I don't think. Because everyone knows corn is healthy. Anyways, I'm very proud of myself, but I forgot to weigh, because my mom let me take a 5 HOUR NAP!!! Holy shit man! That's way to long to be sleeping for a nap, because I mean, I won't sleep the whole night!

Anyways, I would just like to say, that today was cool. I got to watch two movies in two different classes today, and we don't have homework in math. WEEHAW! Robin has been flirting with me more recently, and that's always fun *wink*. I can't really say what's going to happen between us, because I really don't know. This saturday I'm going to help her grandma move and stuff, then go out to dinner and a movie with my friends, so that will be fun.

Anyways, my mom wants to go to bed now. It's bore city for the rest of the night, because the computer is in her room! JOY! The computer I bought resides in her room, and I have to get off when she says... :'( anyways, cya later peoples.

Tired

2004-04-15T01:36:43Z

Today has been uneventful. I stayed home from 24/7, my youth group, because I hate it and I told my mom "I was too tired and had too much homework", which is true. I can't stand going to 24/7, it's so lame. Anyways, it's not important.

What is important is that my mom yelled at me again today (what a surprise). She yelled at me for not going to the stupid youth group, and that I was faking my work load and I was faking being tired. She sat there and watched me work for 2 whole hours, and she was still like "You could have done it afterwords". What a bitch.

So I'm listening to "People = Shit" by Slipknot, which is about what my mood is right now. My friends are the only ones who I can talk to anymore. I mean, I used to have a great relationship with my mom, and then she got this dumbass idea she had to punish me more or something, since I was getting older. I never even deserve it when she punishes me. Ok, like 2/10 times I deserve it, but hardly ever.

I just want to live here in the guest room, posting on althanas and in this live journal, and never have to deal with my mom. *ugh/sigh*

I have no idea what I'm going to do for the weekend, and frankly, I don't care. Anything sounds good to me, just so I can get out of the house and avoid the ice witch. I mean, she's let up some, but not much. It's only because I hardly see her, even though we are ever only 10 feet from each other.

Dinner was good tonight, spinach caserole. Mmm, I love that stuff. I don't know why, but I especially like the burnt crust. I dunno, tastes really good to me.

Anyways, there is nothing really else to post about. See you guys tomorrow. (all you imaginary peeps who read my journal ;) )

Hey there

2004-04-14T02:02:30Z

Ahh! I missed yesterday! I wanted to post but I never got around to it. Well, everything has been going pretty well. I don't think I'm going to finish the tournament battle, simply because it's not going very fast. Anyway, that's what's on my mind right now, Althanas. Recently someone complimented the mods, and that felt good.

I haven't been doing much of anything, and I don't know why. School is a bitch, as usual, and I hate dealing with it. But, I'm going to wake up tomorrow, go to school, and be forced to deal with it, so I might as well do it with a positive attitude. I took a HUMONGOUS nap today. I slept from about 4 to 8. That's alot of freaking sleep, especially for a nap. I'm wide awake now, and don't expect to be able to go to bed any time soon.

I was thinking, I still want to write a book, but I don't know what about. I know I would be able to if I could just think of a good plot. I'm never going to end up writing that book about death that I wanted to, because I know my mom would freak out about that. So, I'm stuck trying to figure something else out.

Oh, I want to get this over with. Here is a list of my friends with a brief description, so you know who I'm talking about from now on.

"The Group"

Nathan - Best friend for almost 11 years. Wow, that's a long time. We used to know everything about each other, but I don't know about that now. We don't hang out one on one as much as we used to, far less. Well, I dunno. He is still my best friend though.

Kyle - Kyle is a blast to hang out with, we have all the same interests. I could sit there and talk to him for hours about RP's, Video Games, Card games, almost anything. Only thing is, he gets different in a group. I don't know why, but he does, and he usually doesn't hang out with the group anymore.

Robin - I have a serious crush on Robin. She is so cool. She is alot of the life in our group, yet she isn't seriously outgoing or anything. She has that kinda reserved/sarcastic humor that is awesome. I can talk to her about anything too. I talk to her on the phone every once in a while, when her devil fax machine doesn't squeel at me!

Kara - Nathan's girl-friend. She wasn't for a while, but after Nathan came back from home school and joined the major group of us, they hit it off. She used to be much more unsure of her part in the group, I think, and would lash out at one of us with insults and stuff for no reason.. hyperventalate and embarrass herself. She is nothing like that now, she is more laid back like Nathan, and fits in perfectly.

Evan - Really cool guy. Very down to earth, evan is a blast to hang out with. He is outgoing most the time, but also has a shy side. He is the tallest of all us midgets... he is around 6'4 I think. He is a crucial part of the group, and we are always hanging out at his house, since he is right next to downtown gainesville. You rock Evan!

Chris - He drives everyone everywhere. He is really nice, but he can be an ass sometimes. He is really cool to hang out with though, and just brought his girlfriend into the group, Jasmine. He works at Hungry Howies and goes to school too. I admire him for doing well in school and being able to work. Go Chris!

Jasmine - A recent addition to the group. Chris' girl friend, really quiet, doesn't talk much. She is kinda hyper, I think. That's about it.

Bethany - She is so innocent, doesn't get hardly any of our dirty jokes, and we have 3 or 4 at just lunch alone. Hehe, she's cool.

Kelley - Ditzy is as ditzy does. She doesn't hang out with us that much, but when she does, it's always hilarious (at her expense, of course ;)) All in good fun.

Bennett, Formerly known as Bennegin - Likes Kelley alot, Kelley likes him. He is a small addition, but an addition at that. He can be random and stupid sometimes, but he's good at heart.
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Well, that's about it. Until tomorrow.

Hmm...

2004-04-11T20:34:21Z

Well, today is Easter. Went to church, was going crazy the whole time, went to my Grandma's and Grandpa's to eat lunch. It was really good, but I can't have any of that sweet sweet Easter candy that I crave.

Stupid diet..

Anyways, I regret not being able to post here yesterday. I needed it. I had a lot on my mind. Nathan couldn't come hang out with the group yesterday, and that made me kinda sad + on top of I was feeling like crap. I didn't eat the whole day, because all I was around was carbs carbs carbs. Oh well, I'm proud of myself. I think I'm already losing some weight, which is good. THis is the only diet I've actaully lost weight on :).

So, I learned yesterday that Robin was avoiding people. Joy :). She has become all hermity over spring break. Fortunately, this is "normal", according to Kara. We should have our normal Robin up and running again tomorrow (school *ugh*).

I hate school, it's a real pain in the ass. I hate the stress... that's the whole reason I gained 25 pounds from summer to now. I was 185, and jumped to a big 210. It was about a week ago I realized how fat I really was... I was like "Holy shit, I need to go on a diet." so now I am. I've already lost most my neck (which always has bothered me) and am on my way to my goal. I hope to lose 50 pounds by about a month into summer. That's from 210 to 160. 160 would be a good weight for me. Wish me luck guys!

Ahh, it feels so good to post in the Althanas tournament. Although, I've only posted twice and Zigu has posted 3 times and it's his turn again!! Oh well, the quality of mine is better ;) (no offense Zigu! :P)

So I learn that I probably a bad judge. Tye contacts me after he makes this little "rules for judging thing" and says "Have you read it?" in other words "I'm making sure you read it because you suck ass". Oh well, I do my best, and that's all anyone can hope for.

Plus, I do it for free ;).

*Sighs* I just need some rest. Spring break didn't cut it, because I was constantly doing something with my friends. D'oh! Dammit I need some relaxation... Maybe I'll skip school tomorrow... Nah.

I guess I'm going to have to get over myself. Perhaps some exercise would help? BULL SHIT :). Exercise is over-rated. It doesn't relax you! Once you do it you become one mass of sweat and shitty mess, you stink, and you can't fully relax until about 10 minutes later. Maybe it's because I'm out of shape? I say screw it. I don't want to spend the time getting into shape so that I don't have to go through the whole thing I just described.

Well, I guess that's it for now. My friends are depressed, I am too, what's new.

Bye bye.

Tonight...We ride!!!

2004-04-10T02:40:12Z

Well, earlier today Nathan told me he had sticky buns... Hmm, how is someone supposed to respond to that? So, all I did was go "YUCK!". Sorry I couldn't come up with a more creative answer, I know I've let you all down... :'(

So my mom comes home earlier and goes "Here's our cell phone" and I'm like "Whoa, ok". So now I have an awesome cell phone! :D. I have been waiting for one for SOO long. I've already downloaded the Marilyn Manson "Sweet Dreams" ringtone for it :D.

Cell phones are good. But, my mom has already ruined some of the fun. I had to put zillions of people into the phonebook, which took forever *ugh*.

I feel bad for not being able to work on my website lately. Chris has forced me into a predicament. Before, he had installed the easy forums for me, and I only had to customize. Now he's tutoring me, won't tell me how to install the easy forums, and is making me write my own *ugh*. Kyle is working hard on the RP forum stuff, and I can't do anything about it. Sorry Kyle!

Tomorrow will most likely be just another boring day. I can't get ahold of Robin, so it's been pretty blah. I might go to Nathan's tomorrow, but he doesn't even know if I can go. I'm a sad, lonely little bastard. Pitty me.

So, I'm not as insane as I thought I would be for this post. I actually started out insane, then got bouncy, and now I'm just kinda depressed. Oh well, the phone!

EWW! Metallica just came on! I HATE Metallica!

I just started the Atkins diet a few days ago. This will be my 3rd time going on it. I really need to lose the weight, thus, I've gone on the only diet I've lost weight on. So, I can't have anything with carbs, which is EVERYTHING. Oh well. Hunger is for the weeeaaaak...

I need to post on althanas, but I really don't have the energy/drive. I want to though, I also want to post in the thread me and Robin have up, but she isn't on. Where has she been all these days?! I swear she has a second or third life :P.

Anyways, I guess that's it for now. I really want to keep going, but I'm not going to, so I can have stuff to talk about later :D. Ok, bye bye.

AHAHAHA

2004-04-09T21:50:52Z

I'm feelin a little crazy right now, because I want to do something but CAAAAAAAAAAANTTTT!!!! ISN'T THAT ALWAYS FUN :D! My friends are going to do something this afternoon but I don't have a ride, and my grandma keeps calling me asking if my mom is home. MY MOM ISN'T HOME YET. She isn't going to be home for a long time!

Nothing to do, nothing to do. So, I sit here and write on my new live journal! What do you think?! Pretty cool eh? Everything except for the heart icon ;). Oh well, I'm secure enough in my man-ness to not worry about it (in other words, I couldn't change it ;) *WINK*).

Panthers are a fun animal. They run and frolic all day, and EAT PEOPLE. That's right, they hunt HUMANS! That has got to be the coolest animal ever because of that one thing. I want a panther, I need it to eat my cousins.

My cousin stephen called earlier and said "Mom, can you pick me up at seven?" Naturally, I went along with it to make him feel like an idiot, and I said "Sure thing!" or something to that effect. THE RETARD DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE THAT IT WAS ME! What a god damn idiot! He was like, "OK, thanks!" and hung up! You could tell he wasn't kidding either, because my cousin is just that stupid! What a moron!

*Twitches* I would be playing morrowind, but I've gotten bored of it. You wanna know why? It's because of those stupid stones! I have to activate the earth stones or whatever the tribal shaman said. Well, isn't that boring? I JUST WANNA BE A WEREWOLF, DAMMIT! That's the only reason to get Bloodmoon, to be a werewolf! BUT CAN I CATCH THE DAMN DISEASE? HELL NO! I spent like two whole days trying to catch it without the storyline because the storyline sucks ass.

OK, I was crazy, now I'm just mad! :P Not really, after I said that I got kinda perky and hyper. Wow, wasn't that the gayest thing you've ever heard? No? Good, because I would hate to have the title of saying the gayest thing you've ever heard.

My hats off to india for all their cool rat temples. Did you know they worship the dirty things? They even DRINK after them! Wow! That's one smart people! DRINK THE RAT MILK...

Anyways, I'm going to go now, even though I could ramble forever.

EXPECT ANOTHER POST TODAY!!!!!!!!!

Today...

2004-04-09T21:02:43Z

Well, today has been pretty uneventful. I have been bumming around my house, doing nothing in particular. I'm in one of my "weeping for creation" moods. Although I do not weep, I still have that certain feeling, you know? That feeling you get when you feel like you missed something earlier, a longing. I get it especially when I'm in a rabid writing mood.

Mmm, orange popsickle...

I may post again later tonight, I'm still checkin this livejournal thing out.